Yes I will survive !

Yes, this is why I had decided to start the blog. To leave the footmarks of my life.

I am going through the toughest phase of my life (till date) and I think it needs to be documented, lest I forget what I went through when the times are good. More than 2 years back I took a decision I ll never regret. I came to the US to do my MS. It was a dream I wanted to live.. and i lived it through the thick and thin. There was only one little problem. I chose to graduate in the middle of the worst global recession of the century. Some timing ! I spend days and nights applying for positions online.. several times to the same positions, never getting a reply. I keep calling people for help only to end up empathizing with their predicaments.

This is January 2009 and there are only two kinds of people living in the US. Ones who have jobs ... and others who dont. The ones with jobs are scared. They can feel the impending guillotine hanging over their head. Entire teams are getting fired, many re-organized, some retained, only till the next meeting. They are even scared to mourn the layoffs for there are high chances the next pink slip may have their names on it. The common talk is to go back to India where things are not 'this bad'.. like all common talks nobody is serious about this one.

Then there is this other kind of people.. they dont have jobs .. so they dont worry about layoffs! They dont belong to teams .. so they dont worry about reorgs. They dont get pay slips.. so why worry about pink slips.. they have only one small worry .... Survival ! I belong to this multitude.

Have you ever dreamt of falling in a dark abysmal well? I have.. nowadays its so recurring i actually enjoy the ride. The only problem is that I am dragging quite a few people with me who really dont need this excitement.

These are times which may be chronicled in history lessons and there'll be dark facts peeping out of books for future generations to see. people will say in a matter-of-fact way .. 'yes those were bad times' without knowing how it really was. I'll know.. and i will remember how it was.. and i will look up from that book and take a deep breath and say .. Yes I survived !